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Funny Thing...

Look at my blog photo in the corner, and then look at Amber's eyes when her daddy is holding her with that crazy hair... same facial expression?

Mini me?

Here we go...

The love of a big sister.

Damn it daddy, why did you do that to my hair when I was only a few days old?

Amber Addison is here

Preface: Thursday I was not any more dilated or effaced - we decided to hold off on the induction until Tuesday, Aug. 28th...

But Friday morning...

About 4:00 a.m. Friday, I just felt different, crampy instead of achy in my pelvis.  I didn't go back to sleep.  I timed contractions for awhile anywhere from 4 to 11 minutes for an hour and a half, and then Savanna woke up and I gave her a bath, got distracted.  Hubby took her to daycare.

By 8:30 I decided I should call the dr. because the contractions made my toes curl and were steady.  Was there by 9 a.m., they monitored me, decided I was in early labor - although I started thinking I was out of labor because they seems more distant and not as crampy but I was dilated to a 3.  The dr. said she'd go ahead and admit me and break my water around lunch.

I had a GREAT nurse.  He taught us how to rock with contractions, walking around REALLY helps. We basically chilled out, walked around - laughed, chatted it up, not bad at all up to this point. At 1:00, the dr. checked me - I was dilated to a 4 -she asked if I was ready for my water to be broken - sure... she broke my water - immediate change - IMMEDIATE.  VERY crampy - felt different and harder... contractions went FAST and hard immediately. I could no longer stand during them, like within 15 minutes, I had to lay down. Within I don't know how long, I wanted the IV meds, and the nurse recognized that I was & grunting. He said "are you wanting to push?"  I was crying and said "yes, oh my God, oh my God - I want the medicine".  He checked me, too late AGAIN.  I dilated to an 8 within 30 minutes or so.  He told Tony to push the red button and said "GET A DR. IN HERE NOW!"  Yep, barely made it again, I already felt the crowning before she got there.  Hurt like a fucking son of a bitch this time.  I guess I was more aware of what was going on.  I'd feel her head come out, then go back in - but really in a matter of 5 pushes or so - she was out. I was all happy and walking around right after, and they were amazed.  Me too.

Savanna kisses her sister alot, but isn't having much to do with me - which is fine really.  Both grandmother's are here.  We are already home.  It was really very easy and not stressful at all this time.  I had a great male nurse who helped me work through the contractions, but they weren't bad really - it was the head coming out that was terrible. So really overall complete labor was only 6 hours, and the hard part - the head was only about 10 minutes.  They said I was born to have babies and made it look easy - I don't know how they can say that when I yelled my ass off and cried.

This time around, so far, has been so much less stressful, and so far - I am really loving it.  But my mom is still here and Savanna is at daycare today.  My bottom is so freaking sore though - this time, I did take the "good" pain pills.  It feels better today, the porn star boobs have arrived I'll post pics later.

Not proofing this, so if it's crazy worded - well, you understand

Gawd

Complaining pregnant woman alert...

I am fucking miserable.  I am not in pain.  I am just achy from my lower back around to my abdomen down into my pelvis.  And I can't bend because this kid is feels huge and is into my ribs - I actually had pain from her punching me the other day - I jerked.  I thought that pain in the ribs thing was a myth - it isn't.  All around just miserable.  I guess that is actually a stretch.  I'm not swollen, I haven't gained much weight, I'm not vomitting.  I am just sick of being pregnant now.  I cannot sleep well, I am so anxious about this baby coming in the middle of the night and having to drag Savanna out of bed to the hospital with us.  Sure people have volunteered to come be with her, but I can't stand the thought of her waking up to a stranger.  I can't decide what is worse, her waking up to a stranger or just taking her with us.

My mom was here for a week, she left and now I want her back.  I at least had some anxiety relief just knowing she was her for Savanna.

I guess I could walk, but I don't feel like it.  My energy today is zilch.  I'm very grumpy.  Friday is my due date... I cannot believe this kid has stayed in here so long.

Big sigh....

Within a week

I should have a baby within a week... I'm going to be induced next Friday unless I go into labor sooner.  I hate the idea of induction, but given that Savanna is so little and our mom's are out of town, it seems like the best thing for everyone other than me.  I didn't want to have an epidural, but with induction, I hear contractions can go on forever and they are very strong - so JOY.  I pray I go natural before then.  I was dead-set against it until I found out this morning that I am not any more dilated or effaced.  I walked out of the dr's office, got to the elevators, turned around and went back into the dr.'s office, found the doctor and told her that I changed my mind about induction - they all laughed.  So the induction will be next Friday - a week from tomorrow.

My mother jumped the gun and came last Thursday and has been here ever since - whew...  I told her to wait for me to call her Friday morning to see if I had more contractions - she didn't, she seems to have a hearing problem.  There was a voice mail that morning at 5:00 a.m. - she was already on her way.  She's had great Savanna time and been pretty helpful, but she's spent a week of her vacation here and there is no baby.  Luckily, my mother-in-law wasn't as panicky and she should be available for awhile when I do actually go into labor and need help.  I think I'll start hourly jumping jacks. 

In labor yes, no, yes, no, no, no

So I had another labor panic - both mom's came in Friday - no baby, contractions have stopped.  God. When the baby comes out, then I'll know I was in labor, right?

Savanna has issues, teething I'm guessing, but she isn't sleeping well and is very fussy.  The stress around here is HIGH.

At my dr.'s appt, I wasn't any more dilated or effaced, but I found out the amazing news that I've only gained 23 pounds this pregnancy, and THAT is total bragging rights.  This time, I haven't weighed myself, didn't even pay much attention at the dr.'s office at each visit, didn't pay attention to anything I ate, but most recently don't have much of an appetite.  I'm thinking losing it this time should be very easy... knock on wood.  That is IF THIS BABY EVER COMES OUT.

nope

No baby yet.  I have contractions sporadically, shooting pelvic pains every now & then.  No sign of real labor.

I am nesting like a mo-fo.  Cleaning baseboards, vacuuming corners, sweeping spiderwebs, cleaning windows, rearranging the fridge & cabinets, wiping down ceiling fans.  I am not resting, which is why I'm at home.  I can't relax till this stuff is done.  One more day, and I'll be done - I think.  I did take a nap yesterday and get a pedicure, no time for that today, gotta take Savanna to her checkup in a bit, unless my hubby does it, and I so hope he does so THEN I can relax for an hour or so.

We ordered a rocking recliner, it's not the best looking fashion piece of furniture, but it's fluffy and comfy and rocks really well - and yes, I moved it into place with my pregnant ass scooting it around.  I didn't have cash for the delivery drivers, felt terrible - so I gave him a cold bottle of water???  Um, not the same I'm sure... but they were sweaty so maybe it helped.  My husband would KILL me if he knew that I was pushing furniture around.  Yeh, not so good for my back and pelvis.

Ok, back to it.

Very soon I think

Thursday I was dilated already to a 1.5 and 75% effaced, her head is already at a station 2, which means it's right there at my cervix.  My Dr. was shocked - I wasn't.  I felt awful the night before, and felt awful all day Thursday - lots of irregular contractions and with her head being so far down - not comfortable.  I'm working from home now.  The Mother-In-Law came in, but now things have calmed back down with the pressure and contractions.  With Savanna I was dilated to a 1.6 on Friday, and had her on Sunday.  So hopefully soon... I imagine within a week??????