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Yeh, I can never come up with clever titles.

I blogged a few weeks ago that my friend had premature twins and the little girl didn't make it. A good update: The little boy is doing well. She was able to hold him for the first time, which is VERY exciting.

I met a Lean Cuisine that I didn't like. The one with chicken, asparagus, tomato and pasta in a lemony sauce. Blah.

I saw a mommy pushing triplets that I'm guessing were about 18 months old in a triple sized stroller, and an accompanying four year old. Think about that for a second.

A mom. 3 toddlers. A 4 year old... out in public. She was not drunk. In fact, she was smiling. Odd.

I had to step back and watch. I thought "WHAT is she driving." Obvious answer is a mini-van. I was curious how she went about getting all 3 of them out of the stroller and into the car seats and how she'd heave that stroller into the minivan in 100 degree weather without melting or drinking from her purse or yelling "MOTHA FUCKING GOD DAMNED STROLLER" like I would have, but I didn't stick around for that. It was 100 degrees.

my 2 cents

My grocery store had Lean Cuisines on sale, 5 for $10. That is an EXCELLENT deal. They are normally $2.67 each. I bought enough for 2 weeks, that's lunch for 2 weeks for $20. In this day and age - that is simply amazing. The best part is... they are FABULOUS. Seriously. I can get excited about these. The quality is great, and most importantly, I think it's hard to find these frozen dishes that are somewhat healthy, taste good, have ENOUGH veggies, easy to get excited about, and filling. These do the trick wonderfully. I wish they'd come up with something for breakfast. Yummy in my tummy as Savanna would say. I went back to the store today, and the sale is gone... Damn it. That was the best sale. I wonder how I find out when they are at that price again. I'm signing up for coupons online. They are THAT good.

My fav's are: Parmesan crusted fish - parmesan crusted fish with penne pasta in a fire roasted tomato sauce with zucchini and yellow carrots.

Tortilla crusted fish - this is WONDERFUL, tortilla crusted fish with rice,poblano peppers,corn and red peppers in a sour cream sauce topped with cheese. Really, Really good!!!!

Sesame Stirfry with chicken - made with WHOLE GRAIN pasta. Oh my God, whole grains? Yes, that's right. And good veggies too.

Don't overcook. But these are incredible. I am so excited. Go try them out, RIGHT NOW.

I also bought ELF makeup. There was this rumor going around that Nordstroms was buying them out, so everything was $1, but that is not true - everything is always a dollar. I got a bitch load of stuff... not all that impressed. The eyeshadow comes with a little tiny applicator, I fumble it in my hands. Eyeshadow gets creases on your lid by the end of the day. The mascara is ok. I do like the nail polish. I sorta like the mineral eye shadow. It took over 3 weeks to get the stuff and given the quality, I'd just as soon go to the store and buy my makeup. Worth a shot though. I HATE the eyeliner. Does not go on smooth at all, you have to scratch your eyelid off to get that shit to go on. Lip gloss is ok... the bronzer covers well - you have to be careful with it, or you'll look like pancake face. Overall, not sure I'd buy any of it again. I wanted to LOVE it, but I didn't.

I'm still blah... infant funerals have to be one of the worst things EVER. It is difficult to get out of your mind, especially when there is another baby hanging on the thin vine of life...

Deep sigh.

But in the goodness of things, my own little girl is taking steps. She's very brave, this one. She moved up in class at daycare, which took me by surprise and actually upset me... to think about my little baby growing up. Ugh. Hurts my heart a little.

Kids are fantastic. Truly.

I'm in a rut with working out and eating well. I'm not eating much at all really, and I am not working out. I keep thinking "go to the gym", but I just haven't made it. Damn it. I am so not motivated. Why won't I "JUST. GO." If I went just once, it'd probably be enough to spark it up again, but I'm not having luck with that motivation. I want to just relax... constantly. I don't want to get sweaty and come back to work in this heat.

But, more.... I think I am just down. Still worrying about the other boy twin. Will he make it? Will he not? Why do I worry about things I cannot control?

Unfair World

I'll give you a warning. I am in a TERRIBLE fucking mood, but I'll go with the good first.

We took our girls to my husband's deer lease cabin this weekend. Beautiful, quiet country, rolling hills, serenity, AC and facilities, so nice in deer lease cabin terms - well, despite the fact that my kids "fight" sorta now. Amber grabs Savanna's hair with both hands, pulls HARD, and then tries to bite her forehead...all the while, Savanna is screaming for help. And no doubt, Savanna caused the situation by yanking something out of Amber's hands, so now Amber is "fighting" back. I know, it is a "little" funny, but not really. So, anyway, Savanna rode the 4-wheeler, they played in their froggy pool, I watched 2 movies. Meet Joe Black, which from memory, I thought I HATED because of the sadness factor, but it was better than I remembered, and Definetly, Maybe, which I thought was Fantastic! Loved it, very cute.

Typically the kids fall asleep on road trips, so it also allows hubby and I to actually talk. He listens to country music, so we sing - it is fun. I love Carrie Underwood's song 'I Don't Even know His last name' - that's probably not the title, but that song is so fun - find it, listen to it. And we discussed George Strait. Hubby says he lost his wife or daughter in an accident or something, so I shall google that as soon as I'm done here.

But back to the bad fucking part of the morning today. A friend of mine gave birth to twins at only 24 weeks and 5 days. The girl baby passed away this weekend. The boy is... well, the boy is still alive. It is touch & go with babies this little. I am soooo upset about this. I've been crying for 2 hours. I don't understand the fucking fuck fuck fuck FUCK fucked up world when someone so good who wants babies so bad who would be a great mother loses children. She lost her first pregnancy at 20 weeks. I don't deal with this shit well. She is an incredible person who keeps her faith and is so positive. I don't know how, she's just flatly AMAZING. I'd be flipping God off, in fact, I think I am flipping Him off for her.

Better go, here comes the lightening. FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And I have to go fix my makeup.

Pump Talk

I filled up my ginormous SUV yesterday, which I love because it is big and I can fit a lot of shit in it. Yes, I'm "one of those people" driving a huge gas guzzler who is willing to give up eating out as much to afford driving a bus because of my kids - well, ok, I haven't yet trimmed down my eating out, but maybe I will - one day. Anyhoo, it taxed me $96.96.. I remember when I could fill up for $10... but that was when I was 16 and drove a tiny Ford EXP.

I moaned and groaned out loud, said "My Gawd, Jesus." I guess I call out to God thinking that He'll help.

The man next to me said "what are they doing to ya?"

I think he thought I was talking about the kids, because as I fuel up, I generally play with them and make silly little mommy noises. Yes, "I'm one of those people." I said "It just cost me $100 to fill up. I am going to have to sell one of my kids."

He said "We ain't in Kansas anymore."

Ah... Austin.